Friday, August 19, 2011

A blessing and a curse

I just got finished reading an article in my running magazine about several runners who are planning on participating in the New York Marathon in memory of someone who had died due to the 9/11 tragedy.  Anyone who knows me knows that I don’t normally read these kinds of articles or watch programs on anything even remotely sad. I feel like there is enough sadness in life I don’t want to read it, or hear about it, or watch anything about anything…sad.  I read the article though and it made me just want to burst into tears. 

I am so grateful for all that I have in my life.  I have such loving friends and family who support me and keep me together when I want to fall apart.  I have all these wonderful people in my life and I can’t possibly show each and every one of them how much I love them and how much they mean to me.  There’s not enough time in the day to call up each individual person and tell them I love them and that I’m only who I am today because I have them in my life.  This HUGE feat is so depressing and frustrating  to me. 

I am lucky enough to have parents that are both there for me and I don’t get to see them on a daily basis.  I have siblings who mean the world to me and I can’t hug them every day and share a meal.   
And my truly, truly awesome friends that are spread out all over the world…I miss you and I want to hang out and laugh together on a regular basis…but we can’t.

We never know when someone we love is going to be taken from us so as lame as facebook, twitter, myspace, and personal blogs are, it makes me smile just a little bit to know that even though I might not be near enough to hug you, I will keep up to date through your shared pictures and status updates. I will feel a little more connected and hope you know that I love you and that you are still in my heart. 

If you are close enough to hug your friends and family please do…and hug them for me too. 

Much love and HUGE hugs,